the end

this will be my final post............
am locking the doors and throwin off the keys for good
blog is meant to be expressive and i have done wat it was meant to be,but the response away from the blog is quite disheartening.....cant express more ......whatever i write has its source from my clear mind ,am not so good a human being neither am a bad one,,,,,,,,,,,,i shall write watz in my mind and wen it turns against me then i just have to shut the fuck up ,and am doin this with no regrets ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,some day i shall write and whatever i shall write will never be regretted ,,,ma salamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

just a pick from the web

One day at school a girl was asked to a party by a boy she had liked for years. Of course, saying yes she headed home happily. The girl asked her parents if she could go out that night but was turned down. Her parents were going out to eat for their anniversary and didn't want her to go. Besides, they reasoned, you don't even know this boy very well. The girl agreed sullenly and went to her room. Calling her friend, she made plans to pretend to spend the night there while really going to the party. Her friend agreed and the girl tricked her parents into letting her stay with her close friend. Saying goodbye to her parents the girl left to her friends house where she told the boy to pick her up. The boy arrived on time and they left for the party. The girl felt so excited to be with the boy that she liked, that at first she didn't mind that he was drinking. Soon, even she had consumed alcohol and was feeling good about coming. Waviing goodbye they both piled into the car, with the boy driving. As they drove, he kept on swerving and increasing the speed. You're going to fast! she complained giggling a bit. Suddenly the boy crossed a red light and crashed into a car that was turning in front of them. Two days later the girl woke up in the hospital. Looking around she spotted a nurse sitting in the corner. The nurse smiled and asked how she was feeling. The girl could only nod her head before quickly asking what had happened. The nurse lowered her eyes as she explained that her crush had survived but the people in the other car had died. The girl felt tears welling up in her eyes as she thought about their families. As they began to fall down her face the girl pleaded for the nurse to tell the deceased's families how sorry she was. Looking at the girl with anguished eyes, the nurse turned her head away and quickly got up. Please! the girl cried out. Tell them I'm so sorry! Nodding her head once the nurse fled from the room, hiding the tears that were already streaming donw her own two cheeks. How could she be the one to tell the girl, that the people who died that night, that were in the other car were her parents returning home from the restaraunt?"Every day we make choices, and every night we must sleep with the consequences of those choices."This was claimed to be a true story.

29 years of shame

29 years have gone past me ,no big achivements to drum.but yes with my limitations i was able to live 29 x 365 days .am falling back ,bits and pieces ,the assuarence of my inabilities come in all forms ,big and small. am falling back,,,,, i need to do what no one will expect from me.i need to go so far that no one recognises me .want to asses what i am capable.all i can pray for now is that one chance to go ,to some far of place to atleast try and live the way which contradicts my past.it aches ,cant look in to the mirror anymore ,how could i feel bad about myself like this?
i need to go ,need thid break ,need to hide but need to live too.wish tommorow i shall feel better and write something which contradicts this post.

i accept

There is a feel of loss in my thoughts today ,a loss that cud have been my life’s oxygen ,the reason for me to reenergize .but am happy at the same time cuz the reason for me to reenergize cud turn out to be the reasons loss. I confess that I have gone wrong in all my decisions and I accept that I am my own grave digger, but am i that unlucky that I don’t get a second chance?. All I cud say is that am sorry my dear life that I have wasted you……………

May goodness lead you ,and let the deaf hear and blind see

“Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see"

well done rahmaniacs ,by capturing the life of all those orphans on the I Day.

For rahmaniacs ,my salaam

തേച്നോലോഗി

മാത്തൂര്‍ ഭാഷ മലയാളം ആണെങ്ങില്ലും ,വയികാനും എഴുതാനും അറിയാത്ത ചില്ല മനുശരില്‍ ഞാനും ഉള്പടുന്നു , സ്സ്ല്ക് വരെ തമിള്‍ ആയിര്രുനു രേന്ടാം ഭാഷ ,വളരെ കഷ്ടപട്ടു ജെയിച്ചു .അതില്‍ പിന്നേ ഫ്രെന്ച്ച് ആയിരുന്നു രേന്ടാം ഭാഷ .വെല്‍ ഇഫ് യു ആരെ കന്ഫുസേദ് ദാറ്റ് ഹൌ ഡോ ഐ വ്രിറെ ഇന്‍ മലയാളം ? വെല്‍ ടെക്നോളജി ,ദാമന്‍ .......ഓനെ ഫൈന്‍ ഇയര്‍ ലങ്ങുഅങേസ് വില്‍ ബി എ പാര്‍ട്ട് ഓഫ് ഹിസ്റ്ററി ആന്‍ഡ് ടെക്നോളജി വില്‍ ടെസിടെ വാട്ട് ലാംഗ്വേജ് ടോ സ്പീക് ആന്‍ഡ് ടോ വ്ഹോം ടോ സ്പീക് ,,എഫ്ഫെക്ട്സ് ആരെ കൂള്‍ ബട്ട് സൈഡ് എഫ്ഫെക്ട്സ് ???????????????????



i know i know that any one reading this wud be laughing like hell ,this is just a try.