The Inevitable

Death during those days meant that i will be left alone @home as my parents have to go for the death house,meant notin to me .the first death that affected me was of my cousin brothers and after a long gap somewhere around 2003 i was involved in the whole process of after death ceremonies .the first of its kind for me and i got inspired by one small girl who happens to be the daughter of the dead guy.who happens to be my cousins husband who died in a freak industrial accident in kuwait,so below is wat i felt was a better work of mine.,,,,

THE INEVITABLE

I saw her face, those restless eyes
Busy hands on a piece of paper
trying to draw a senseless piece of art
but it meant a lot to her
a daughter’s depiction of her father
a father gone far away promising her a doll
now he is back, promise broken
but why? She did not know
a day she will never forgot or is it that,
will never fade from her thought’s
she saw her weeping mother
and wished never seeing that again
people poured in from all corners
to their small house, distant relatives
distant by relation and communication
she smiled at them but no courtesy was shown
she saw her ever complaining grandmother
besides her sister, a rare sight
the usual evening after school was missing
she saw her sister being kissed by her grandmother
everything was new to her that day
on one asked her to do her homework
she felt sad for her mother
assuming that she hurt herself
young and ignorant, my heart bled for her
she did not know the darkness that lay ahead
she did not know the reality that would bite one day
she did not know the depth of her loss
the table, her play center was occupied
by a long box under a dying 40 watt bulb
people peeping in to it , what are they searching?
She questioned herself , one day she will get an answer
she was in her usual mood
she did not know that everyone pitied her
everyone saw her with sympathetic eyes
she did not know that every one knew something,
about her that she did not know
where will she be in a few years ?
what will she be when she grows up?
Who will make her feel protected?
Who will she look up to when she is in a crisis?
Will all these be unanswered question?
For me it was becoming more unbearable
to see her ignorance
to see her when she will
long for the lost love
the day will come not far away
the pain of knowing that
there is no one to lead her
no one to cuddle her.
death is inevitable but then,
a father for a daughter is more than inevitable

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